This week I finished grad school. In the next week or so I'll pay off the house. I should be ecstatic, right? What I am is confused.

I've been walking this path for so long that I never really thought about what comes after it. I tried to fit in this nice little box by dating, because wouldn't that be the next natural step since life has kept me too busy to do that for these past years? It didn't work and I wasn't impressed at all with the dating world. Then I remembered something.

I don't like boxes. I don't like serial daters or serial dating either. And why the hell does that have to be the next step anyhow?

As a writer it can be pretty hard to make a budget. Things change so fast in this world that one week you can work nonstop and the next week you can be scrambling for something. Fortunately, I happen to have some fantastic clients, and that allows me to predict my budget. It's only taken me almost 10 years to get here and I decided it's time to enjoy that.

In a way, I suppose I'm going to date myself. It dawned on me last night that I haven't been skydiving since before Hunter was born...or white water rafting, or traveling just for the fun of it. Those are things I love to do and things I've put off in the name of survival as a mother, student, business owner, and home buyer. I want to take my son so Comic Cons and find someplace where he can LARP...and maybe I will too!

I got busy working and forgot how to live. Change isn't easy for me, even good change. But a whole new door just opened for me and I have no desire to put any hopes and dreams into someone else and just wait until they decide they don't want to stick around anymore. In a world where you can meet anyone at any time and instant gratification is the norm, everyone is thinking there might be something better around the corner, so let them. Me? I'm not even going to walk on that block. I'll be ziplining over it ;)


  1. Good for you, Kathy. I love the idea of you and Hunter LARPing and going to Comic Cons! I'm involved in the planning of Worldcon 2015 myself right now, and it is a blast. :) I missed out on motherhood, so I love reading your blog and living that vicariously through you. Thank you for it.

  1. Thank you so much Cherise. We've never been to a LARP or Comic Con so this will be a whole new adventure for us!

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